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Monday, December 06, 2010

Tonight is an emotional night for me. There have been lots of time where I felt thankful and fortunate for everything that I've got but tonight I felt it MUCH stronger than before. I realised just how REALLY fortunate that us normal people are, with almost everything we can ask for: appearance, money, health, intelligence, senses, family, friends....These things that we take for granted are the exact same things that others dun have. This girl I saw on the TV programme 梦。窑匠 really made my heart ache so much and I cried the whole time i watched the show. She has a lot of illnesses, all taking up her small and fragile little body. She's the same age as me which made me even more sad as what I have and possess compared to hers is like heaven. She doesn't have the appearance that even normal people have. She can't speak, eat and walk and only hears with the hearing aid. She uses sign language, and survive only on milk from a device that is connected to her stomach. She is stick thin which pains my heart to see and yet she still has this cheerful and positive outlook, eagerness to study and the initiative to make friends. Her parents have done the best in their abilities to care for her and LOVE her and their interaction really makes me feel that LOVE is the best feeling that one could ever have in the world. What are we compared to these less fortunate who live fighting everyday to live with whatever little they have while we are complaining despite how much we've got. Seeing this programme made me wanna study harder to make good use of the opportunity that god gave me and not give up despite whatever small difficulty I face. I also learned to be more gracious and generous and THANKFUL for whatever I have. Every time I think of the less fortunate, they will be my motivators to live my life positively and to always think of what I can do to help others even if its just a small gesture. I am not very certain that whatever job I take on in future, it definitely has got to do with helping the less fortunate...and hopefully I will get to do so. I wish that the lives of these less fortunate will gradually improve and that more Singaporeans give them their helping hand.

8:50 PM sprinklinq love Y

Saturday, October 30, 2010

This post is specially addressed to my sister. I have so many things to say and I dunno where to start. Your behaviour, attitude and character PISSES ME OFF!!!! I cant stand it anymore and so I decided to write down everything that I am not happy about you. So what if your my sister? Does that give you the right to get angry at me just because the food that I kindly bought for you is what you dont like? Does my kind intention deserve this anger of yours?! I could have jolly well not called and asked if you need me to buy anything but I always think of you when I buy my things because I feel that you may want it too. Did you ever think of buying a particular thing for me just becoz you thought that I may need or want it when you shopped for ur stuff? NO. Its also the same case where you always nvr fail to 'reserve' the food that you want to eat and nvr gave others a chance to choose the food they want to. When there is nothing you like you will just throw a tantrum. WHAT IS THIS????? Are you the queen???? Why do you get special privilege to choose first?! Have you ever thought of the family members when you choose your food? Have you thought about how the food may also be what they want? Just becoz we were always letting you choose in fear that you may throw a tantrum doesn't mean that you can be selfish and self-centred. Whenever someone accidentally eats the food you reserve, RAGE follows and tantrum starts.... Are the other food inedible?! why can't you like any other pple eat the rest of the food that you didn't choose??????????Did you not realise that when I wanted to eat something that I find on the table I will ask whether that is yours B4 eating? Why am I so foolish? Its all for the harmony of the house and to prevent chaos. Did you once ever thought of asking me first wad i want to eat b4 deciding on yours? NO! And that temper of yours should really **** off. Does being patient make you lose a lot of money? Mothers are meant to be naggy but i noticed that you were nvr patient to listen to everything that mum has to say. You will also start throwing tantrums whenever mum asks you for help with computer issues because she doesn't noe anything. Im not saying that im patient and love listen to mum's nag but at least im not as easily ANGERED as you..... More importantly, IS REST REALLY THAT IMPORTANT TO YOU???? so important that whatever you planned can be put off until the very last minute just because you cannot compromise your break time.? Does being tired make you viable to throw tantrums whenever you like it and at whoever you may shoot? Cant you see that other pple are just as tired or maybe even more tired becoz they slept later and woke up earlier than you? CANT YOU BE MORE CONSIDERATE AND SPARE A THOUGHT FOR OTHERS? FOR ME? You keep giving me the impression that I have no right to lecture you becoz im only 2 years older and mum hasn't even said anything yet. THATS precisely the point!!!!!!!! mum doesn't wanna makes things worse by scolding you for fear of rebellion and so i took the effort to speak to you. Perhaps I wasn't using the right tone or attitude towards you BUT I only wanted to remind you that you have to CHANGE this character of yours.........BEING YOUR SISTER CAN BE DIFFICULT AND I THINK I WILL GET TIRED OF IT SOON!!!!!!

11:29 PM sprinklinq love Y

This post will be about my promo results and my OP dry run. This post is titled vast disappointment because of my promo results. Many were pleased with their results when they were sitting in the hall on wed because they passed all of their subjects and can get promoted to J2 if not they got unexpectedly good results and are happy. However few noticed the girl who was silent most of the time when we got back our results because the sinking of her heart just got deeper as the GP,econs and bio paper were given out. I have failed both H1 subjects and most probably failed Bio as well if the percentage of both papers are not 50%-50%. This implies that I have a 50%-50% chance of promoting and retaining.What I didn't have to worry at all for 16 years of my life was instantly dropped upon me like an egg cracked on my head. The possibility of not moving up the ladder made me very disappointed and I have only myself to blame. The effort that I put in may not be as much as in O levels and so I reaped what I sowed. Another disappointment that i faced was during the dry run of OP. the Q&A stumped me and I was unable to answer the Qn at all and that was all because I misinterpreted the Qn and that I didn't put much thought into preparing for Q&A.....This proves that without effort put in, you will not be able to achieve the results tat you want.....What's left will only be regret.

11:11 PM sprinklinq love Y

This is the first time in more than 6 months that I touched this blog again. And the reason i revived this blog is because of the things I have been going through this past few months and some feelings that I have kept in my heart..... Firstly lets talk about PW, having spent the past year changing, editing and brainstorming for ideas and doing our report, I feel that other than one's mindset, their group members, one of the most important thing that separates us from an A will be the teacher... A more than adequate word to describe our teacher would be INCOMPETENT. For a teacher to be able to provide constructive feedback and help us improve our report would be to study the students' report well and be clear about what he/she wants us to do. However, he was lacking in every single factor that I mentioned. Repeating wateva comments he gave just a MINUTE ago was always impossible and he will just brush it off saying "I can't rmb.' This implies that he himself is not clear of wad changes he wants us to make and he is obviously NOT putting his heart into wanting to help us improve our report. He also nvr fails to forget about the students project details and needs constant reminders by the students. What is the worst is that he ACTUALLY only gave the report serious thought 3 days b4 the final deadline and found a lot of mistakes in all of our reports when all we have been submitting fr the past two months are reports that are 80% similar. What is this when the strategy that we submitted was deemed ok 3 weeks B4 and now it has to be changed 3 weeks after?! Not to forget the shocking news that he dropped us on friday that the GPP draft we handed in dunno how many months ago was not the final and we have to change it according to the current topic! Thursday is the deadline and we have 1 week to edit the GPP and submit without another chance of editing again.....HOW can he drop so many unexpected bombs on us poor students who have been working their project to the wee hours in the morning only to find that their efforts are wasted because the teacher was not responsible enough to give their report serious consideration!!! Is your baby much more important than we are? your students who are also precious children of parents whom you might become when ur child reach our age.... would you rather that she meets a teacher like how you are now AND HAVE TO SUFFER JUST LIKE WE DID? I feel very disappointed in you teacher because your attitude towards PW has rubbed off to us and we had once felt like giving up. The only lucky thing is that you bothered to get us to submit the reports unlike teachers of other classes. BUT other than that you have a lot of things to improve on mister....A LOT OF THINGS....):

10:46 PM sprinklinq love Y